I don't regret it, though, as I had an AMAZING New Year in Sydney. It was one of those moments that I will never forget as being one of the most refreshing & beautiful time with friends. I tell ya, I never feel as close to my Maker either than when I'm in nature (especially at the beach...add the sun rising or setting over the horizon, and you have the perfect recipe to see some major heart melting).
This year, I will be spending almost TWO MONTHS at home! (December 9-January 30)
Crazy, I know! I don't believe I've been home for that amount of time in the last 3 years. In this time, I am planning to visit friends around America, and visit New York City for my first time ever!!
New York has been on my mind quite a bit lately. Tonight I went out to a park that overlooks a span of Sydney (well, the Hills district at least), and I sat down on a park bench to journal. I needed to get away. I needed to refocus and get all my anxious thoughts out of my brain, and onto paper. Immediately I was taken to a time when I'd done the same thing just three years before. I remember the time I was biting my nails over whether to come to Hillsong College in July 2008 or January 2009, or if I should even come, etc etc...it was a cold winter day in a local park back home. As I was writing in my journal, pleading with God to just show me already what the heck I was supposed to be doing with my life, I put down the pen and called Hillsong College. When I pushed the 'call end' button on my phone, I felt the greatest sense of relief, peace and excitement. It just took me making a decision and sticking by it.
As I was on a bench in some park in Australia 3 years later, I had the view of a lake in the distance, while the sun set. I was writing in desperation to get some answer as to what the next step looks like for me. It was an all too familiar scenario.
What did I take away from that life changing moment? I didn't have a sudden glimpse of what I'll be doing, an insight into what kind of job I could get in New York, or if I will make enough to sustain myself in that concrete jungle. I realized everything will be (as it always is) revealed in its proper time.
If only you could see
How heaven stills when you speak
I know all your days
And I have wrapped you in mystery
And oh, my love for you
Is as wide as the galaxies
Just hold out your hand and close your eyes
And come be with me
- "My Love Hasn't Grown Cold", by Bethany Dillon
Psalm 112:7
"They will have no fear of bad news;
their hearts are steadfast, trusting in the LORD."
