Breakdown

I guess it was bound to happen. Every girl has one once in a while, and I haven't had a full-on breakdown since I've been here. Today, that changed. Lately things have just been really really tough. I know there are probably people out there in college housing that have it worse off than I do, I just haven't met them yet. Haha. On a more serious note, it's just been really hard finding rides, as I have mentioned before quite a few times I'm sure. And just being out in Rosa by ourself is really hard. There's a good amount of guys (but not a ton), but hardly any girls. I actually thought we were the only girls, but I found out today that there are 4 other girls in Hillsong College that live in Rosa. I don't know where, but I might try and find out. Regardless, me and Kate feel really excluded from the college community. Not because people have made us feel that way, but because we're out in the middle of nowhere by ourselves. Robert and April (the married couple that lived with us) are apparently moving out in September. Me and Kate had no idea about it until we got an email from Joy, the Hillsong College accomodation coordinator, yesterday stating that. None of us have talked about it yet, so I am not sure what's going to be worked out with all our stuff (i.e. Will they take the furniture and leave our house empty?, etc). They are moving in with another married couple. I have no idea how they are able to do this still, but it kind of frustrated me, because Joy had told me that we couldn't break our lease since we had a new apartment. So I found out today that the only guy that gives me rides is moving out soon probably too. It was really hard because all these thoughts started going through my head. For one thing, I wouldn't have a ride anymore. I would be taking the bus everyday, and not only does that get really expensive ($6 a day), but that also means I will be getting up super early every day (about 2 and a half hours before class starts). Not only will I lose my ride, but a friend to hang out with. Face it, once people move out of Rosa, you don't really hear from them much anymore. I mean, no one comes out to Castle Hill (the area I live in) once they've moved in the midst of the college crowd in Bella Vista or Glenwood (the two main neighborhoods near the school that the college moves people into). There are other guys here to hang out with, but this guy has been my buddy. I'm closer to him than any of the other guys...probably because we've just hung out more when I'd get rides with him. After I found out that my friends were moving, I got so mad and sad. So much has just been piling up. So I went to Joy's office and she was out for like 20 minutes. I just sat outside crying. A lady saw me and comforted me and then got another lady in the office to come talk to me. I just broke down and told her my situation. This lady set me up to see Joy when she got back, and Joy really helped me. She basically said that the reason they weren't going to move me out was because, as I mentioned before, legal issues with my lease, and my apartment being new. I don't understand it all really. But basically Joy said she didn't care anymore about that, because my landlord was treating me badly. (She really is a horrible landlord) So basically she said she would keep a lookout for an open girls' house. This might take a while. I have no idea. But if she found one, then she would have to look into breaking the lease before anything. But just keep me in your prayers. It's getting harder and harder with each day. Challenges and problems keep arising, and it's very easy to become discouraged. Sorry I don't have a happier blog today, but I just wanted to update everyone with what's going on. Please pray that my accomodation will get all worked out. Hopefully we can move, or I can find a car. Here are some pictures, by the way, of me and some of my friends at the college. We took these today on our 2 and a half hour break between classes! :) Talk to you all soon!